U.S. Road Trip 3 - Chicago

Spent around 28 hours on a train from Grand Junction to Chicago. Plenty of time to forget about being shy and start chatting with different people. One was an old guy who liked talking politics with me - though I'm pretty sure I sounded clueless. I did enjoy the ride and going from car to car. This despite the fact that before I boarded in San Francisco the headlines were about a train that derailed.














My brother flew from New York to Chicago to hang out with me. He's 15 years older than me and left the Philippines when I was 11. It's not the first time I visited him in the U.S. but it was the first time we really had bonding time. He was more maps and guidebooks, and I was more "hey, let's walk til our knees go wobbly." But the yin and yang act worked and the photos show how much fun we actually had.

U.S. Road Trip 2 - Yosemite and Grand Junction, Colorado



I would have wanted my road trip to be a driving trip, but since I was traveling alone, I chickened out and decided to Amtrak it across America. After San Francisco I took a train and a bus to Yosemite National Park and I fell so in love with it so much that there's a separate entry for it below. The last snow was melting and I had the most peaceful 3 days of my life there.













Took the train back to San Francisco to do my laundry and to go clubbing again. Then headed east. On the train, I met some college kids on spring break. I wanted to cut the journey and stop by a small town somewhere. Grand Junction Colorado was on the way and for some reason I decided that's the one.

It was really quiet and the streets were empty. And with the few people I saw, I didn't see any other Asian.

I could feel all eyes on me as I walked around and took pictures. It was a rather strange experience but I'm still glad I went, though I probably won't go back.

U.S. Road Trip 1 - San Francisco

In March 2001, I decided to go on a one month road trip across the U.S. This was my first big vacation alone.

First stop was San Francisco. I stayed in a motel on Market St. Walked up and downhill til my knees went. Met a friend of a friend and we drove to the Pacific coast and to Napa - which was great but I wasn't much of a wine drinker. Went clubbing every night.

Oh and almost got mugged once. Almost. This guy was hiding in a corner, but I saw him and bitched at him before he could surprise me so he decided I'm not worth the trouble.

Pictured here: Birds at dusk at by the Golden Gate bridge, a van by the Pacific Coast, endless Transmerica building, the clock tower at the ferry building, the Palace of the Fine Arts, St. Peter and Paul Church, a boat sailing above the houses and, to the left, just why it's hard to stay straight in San Francisco.





Muppet Faces


Here are some of my all-time favorite pics. Me and my nephews and nieces. Every New Year, we have our family photo taken. I don't know when it started, but being the youngest in my family - 12 years younger than my youngest sister and about 12 years older than my oldest niece - I get to goof around in a photo with all the kids. You will probably notice in a lot of my other photos here that I usually have my "muppet face" on whenever I have my picture taken. (It's actually a defense mechanism, you see. This way nobody will say you look fat or old or ugly.) Anyway, soon the kids started doing their own funny faces and have their own ideas for quirky poses. I guess if I have a legacy, it's this. Muppet faces. Whatever each new year brings, I know that these pictures will always make us smile.

Earth as it is in Heaven



One of my favorite places on earth is Yosemite National Park. I went there alone in 2001, despite my brother's warning that I could get mauled by bear or something. I've never been so at peace (ok, so maybe I was a teeny bit anxious about bears). Here are some of the hundreds of pictures I took.








London Calling






Looking at these photos makes me think that I had a jolly good time when I went to London in 2001. I guess if I just forget about the fact that I lost my luggage and had to wear my travel clothes to my first meeting at our global head office, the fact that I was dripping wet when I watched The Lion King and the fact that I was a single guy who went clubbing for two nights and met no one, well, then yeah sure, it was fun.

But seriously, I did have a good time for most of it. I hung out with friends for a few days, I was able to go everywhere and not get mugged and I loved those hotdogs they sell on the street at night!

Anyway, pictured here are the Big Ben and a Big Horse, St. Paul's Cathedral, The National History Museum and me and my friend Lizzie doing our performance art pose called David meets Goliath.

(I actually wrote a journal - as it was called in the olden days - back then. Posted it all here. Read on, it's like Harry Potter -- just longer and with Ron Weasley in the lead.)

15 July 2001 - landing in london

They lost my luggage.

I knew it. Had a funny feeling already. I headed for baggage claim at Heathrow as if to the gallows.

A friend of mine who lost his luggage once described to me the experience of seeing the carousel slowly empty out, and all the other passengers leave you. Only one bag is sitting on the belt, and it’s not yours. The electronic display that bore your flight number goes blank and the belts stop turning. And you can do nothing but sigh out a very pissed but resigned, “shit.”

It was British Airways that lost his luggage too. I wanted to start that sentence with the word “coincidentally,” but I think it was more than that.

The guy at the lost baggage counter initially told me that my bag is actually in the building -- it just went to the wrong belt. He told me to wait for a bit. I waited for 20 minutes. My bag didn’t materialize.

Then he asked me to file a report, saying that the bag was still in Madrid. I asked him how come he told me earlier that it was in the building? No reply. In my head I was making sweeping generalizations about the British and this country that I never had any desire to visit anyway.

I went to another attendant to ask what they do to the bags that came out of the carousel but were unclaimed. He casually showed me to their storeroom and I chatted with the employees there as I looked around desperately. Very sympathetic, these people.

I had already been here for an hour and was ready to freak. They told me that my luggage was probably still in Malaga. For Pete’s f*cking sake, can they be more inefficient? Did they need a computer to make that one up?

Grumbling and really pissed off I headed out, making a mental note that I will call the hotline every 30 minutes tonight until they memorize my reference number so much they’d dream of it.

Because of the whole delay, I missed the car pick up that the company arranged for me – so I hailed a cab. Pity I was so cross because the driver seemed friendly enough. It took me an hour to get to the city. Traffic was hell. For a while, we were so not moving I felt like I was back in Manila.

True to the plan, I called the hotline twice.


Passed by Harrod’s, the first London landmark I recognized. The cab also went by a very ornate old-style building that looked like a cross between a cathedral and a train station. Apparently this was the Natural History Museum.

The streets were getting narrower and I looked out my window and saw a small square with teenagers lounging about. There was a guy sitting on top of one of four stone lions, with the fountains in the background and a lone, tall pillar with a man on a horse atop it. The pillar was Nelson’s Column, the square Trafalgar’s Square. Aside from Big Ben, this was the one landmark I wanted to go to badly.

Reached my hotel, St. Martin’s Lane, at around 10:00 p.m. Angela once told me that it was one of these Iain Shreager or whatever hotels – apparently really posh, great location and highly rated.

It didn’t look like a hotel for one. It looked like a nighclub. The lobby was dimly lit and had floor to ceiling frosted windows, the counter was a bare white slab of a desk, they had funky yet uncomfortable seats, and the attendants all looked like they jumped out of a fashion magazine. Beyond the lobby I could see two bars, one was packed with people in suits and the other had this mood-lit sort of hall. The whole place looked like the reception area for a disco that I had to ask if I was at the right place.

A guy named Mark was my bellhop who looked more like he was auditioning for a boy band. He offered to show me to my room seeing that I had no luggage to help with. On the way, he was great with describing the hotel and its amenities and mixing it with small talk (“Really? I love Spain.”) In hindsight, I wonder if I just missed out on something.




For a pricey hotel my room was tiny. Very avant-garde though. You had floor to ceiling windows and a clear plastic chair on a bare white, drawer-less desk. The light switch by the king size bed allowed you not only to dim the lights as desired, but change its color to match your mood. (I switched it to red that night.)

Mark asked if he can help me with anything, and I told him I could use an iron and a board since I had to wear the same set of clothes the next day. He got it for me promptly and promised to help check if the airline sends over my bag. I didn’t have any loose change so I gave him the smallest bill I had, which happened to be US$10. Argh.

Just to reiterate how posh this hotel was, in the entertainment cabinet, they had a mini bar, a small TV and a DVD player. Apart from the mini bar items, they also had CDs, aromatic candles, souvenir towels and a cap – for sale of course. There’s actually a price list for an extra toothbrush or towel or shaving kit, and they charge you extra for room service. In the guest book, apart from the pricey in-room dining menu, they also had a list of DVD’s you can rent for a night – ranging from Hollywood blockbusters to adult videos (straight and gay). This place was a laugh and a half.


Phoned up Angela to see if she’d like to join me for a quick dinner.

Met her and her dad at the lobby. I loved Angela’s dad. Very funny, insightful, young-at-heart fellow in his 60’s. It was great seeing him again. I met him twice before, first time in Singapore, next in Hong Kong. Angela grew up in England – her parents having moved to Lincolnshire in the early 1960s and managed a chain of Chinese restaurants. She and her sister, Lizzie, moved to Hong Kong for work in the mid-90s, but her Dad still phones them up every night to check on them. He’s the sweetest guy.

Tonight, her Dad was bunking in her room because he was going to pick up Lizzie at Heathrow early next day anyway.

I kept calling Angela’s dad “Sir.” Later, he insisted I call him “Uncle Peter” because he was no "sir." But I started calling him "Sir Uncle Peter" anyway. Meanwhile, he always dropped the “r” when he calls my name, and his “e” sounds like a “u.” So he pronounces my name as “Pussy.”

Apparently, the hotel was right at the West End, and we had to just go to a parallel road to hit the busy, touristy area where all the theatres are.

Eager to just get dinner over and done with, we went to a fast food place with an open air dining area. Throughout dinner, Uncle Peter kept telling me that I should eat Chinese food, which was more filling. I was just having a slice of pizza because I lost my appetite with the whole luggage mess-up. In between conversations, he’d make funny side comments at the waitress, and later teased me that she liked me.

Across from where I sat was a souvenir shop and I decided to dive in to check if by some chance they sold socks and undershirts and stuff. I couldn’t bear the thought of buying a “London” shirt, so I settled for a shirt with the “Underground” logo. No socks or undies (with everything bearing the Union Jack, who knows what kind of boxers you’d get at these places!)

Angela and her dad took me for a bit of a stroll while keeping an eye out for any place that sold socks.

We were at Leicester Square and at 11:00 p.m., the place was still tourist-infested. It was double-layer weather, around 17 degrees Celsius, I think. We headed on to Picadilly Circus, one of London’s many shopping meccas. Most notable for me was the fact that HMV and Virgin and Tower Records were all here. I knew I’d be back.

Uncle Peter was playing tour guide and showed me Chinatown, which was in the next block. He has been here in England for decades, and he still knows this part of London back to front.

It wasn’t much of a wander. We entered a shopping center called The Trocadero. I was still on the look out for socks and undies. Found one shop that sold girlie stuff -- among them lots of girlie socks in purple and pink and what have you. Wouldn’t wear them if they fit me.

Before midnight we were back at the hotel – which seemed to be alive with the nightlife, especially the bar downstairs.

It was an early day next day so I ran some steam in the shower and let my clothes air overnight. Tomorrow I would meet some of the big bosses at the headquarters of our company’s international operations for the first time. And what they would see is this Asian producer in grungy travel clothes. So much for a first impression.

16 July 2001 - Abbey and Portobello Roads

The next two days were packed with meetings. I know because I set most of them from Hong Kong.

While traveling to and from the hotel, we passed Buckingham Palace. I was with my boss’ boss, James, who volunteered to play tour guide. He told me that the Queen was in the Palace – which is indicated by the flag on the mast at the top of the main dome.

On the way, we also passed Albert Hall, where in summer they held the Proms – a nightly series of concerts. How nice. Is U2 going to be there? No.

From the office, we headed to visit the studio where they produced a daily live show. En route, James asked the cab driver to swing by Abbey Road. And so I saw the site of the famous studio and the zebra crossing the Beatles used in their album cover. Funny thing was, he said worked in this area before, and he recounted how there were so many tourists who would ask him which crossing was the famous one. As a prank, he would sometimes point to the wrong one – which looked totally the same, until the poor guys went home and compared their photo to the album cover.

James asked me if I wanted my picture taken, I declined because we were with some other colleagues. He later said he was rather “disappointed” with me for not getting off for that picture. Yeah, well, I’d live.

We also passed the famous Notting Hill, saw Portobello Road – but no market.

After a thousand phone calls I finally hear the good news that BA found my bags, and these were sitting happily in my hotel room.

At least I didn’t have to shop for clothes. Oh, boo hoo.


Had dinner with an Asian colleague, Eddy, who had just moved to London. We had a table booked at the Mezzo in Soho, about 5-10 minutes’ walk from the hotel. Angela said she knew where it is, but when we were walking, we got so lost that we asked about three different people for directions. I was laughing and laughing. At least I was a first-timer. She grew up in this country.

After dinner, Ange and I went back to the hotel to do some work. When I went to the front desk to ask where the business center was, the attendant gave me the weirdest look. As if the word “business” does not belong in this hotel at all.

“Ok well, is there a place where we can use a computer?”

She directed me to a 24-hour internet café down the road. Great hotel this is.

17 July 2001 - Hotdogs, Ice Cream and Lion King

More meetings the whole day, but this time I was in a fresh set of clothes.

Outside, I saw the sky turn from sunny to a cloudy gray. I think I know what they mean about experiencing all four seasons in 30 minutes here in London, seeing how quickly the weather changes.

That night, Eddy got us tickets to the musical “Lion King.” I was so excited about this because I went to New York twice, and both times I couldn’t get tickets because they were fully booked for the rest of the year. So getting to watch it here in London was a fantastic treat and I was ready to dish out whatever amount it cost (£37, which wasn’t so bad.)

However, it was starting to pour by the time we got out.

The show was playing at the Lyceum. We were a bit early so we had time to pick up James’ nephew and niece who were waiting at the nearby McDonald’s. While at it, Eddy suggested we try the hotdogs that the golden arches sell here. I must say, this hotdog was delicious! Just an ordinary beef dog on a tasty bun with a lot of roasted onion. Yummy.

The kids were one 5-year old boy and a 3-year old girl. The boy was making admiral hats out of the paper mat on the tray, while the girl had golden locks and a shiny tiara. James wasn’t biased when he said they were adorable.

When we got out, however, it was pouring and we only had two small umbrellas between us. The kids’ mom had raincoats for them so they were pretty much ok, for as long as we shelter them with the umbrella. But the rest of us were drenched. So drenched that when we got to the theatre without a word we all just split up and went to dry off at the toilets.

Without launching into a full review, suffice it so say that Lion King was truly amazing, all the reviews about how ingenious the production design was is true. There is still room for improvement with the cast though. For which reason, I couldn’t compel myself to give a standing ovation. Maybe it’s been running for so long that they’re tired?

What I do remember most that night was intermission. Angela was on the phone and James and Eddy went to the toilet while the kids’ mom went off to buy the kids ice cream, I was the only adult left. So I decided to chat a bit with the 3-year old lady beside me and she told me that she saw all those animals for real when they lived in South Africa (they really did). Then all of a sudden the boy suddenly called me…by name.

“Perci, Perci…,” he called with a very posh British accent, “would you like some ice cream?”

I said no, but thank you. But before I could finish, he was already shouting to his mom. “Mummy, Mummy, Perci wants some ice cream too!” I couldn’t contain my amusement as I signaled “no” to his mom. This boy was only 5 years old too.

They were the sweetest kids.


We sort of scattered by the show’s end, and I wasn’t able to say goodbye to the kids nor to their mom and uncle. We all wanted to go out but because of the crummy weather, we decided to call it a night. Angela and I started walking toward our hotel – and again, we got lost. We found ourselves walking around in circles.

But in the process I saw Covent Garden – which is supposedly yet another of London’s shopping meccas. And along the way we passed a small alley where there was a small hotel called Fielding Hotel, which would figure later in my stay.

Back at the hotel by 11:30 p.m. and I was restless. I wanted to go out, even alone (I really didn’t mind), but the weather was just so crap. Instead I proceeded to pack my stuff while watching this old Australian movie where a young Russell Crowe played a gay guy who is close to his dad, forgot the title.

18 July 2001 - officially a tourist

Today, all my meetings are done and I was now all tourist.

First order of the day was finding a place to stay for the next three nights – because there was no way in hell I’d shell out my own £170 a night to continue staying in this posh one. I checked my London guidebook and looked for a place that was as accessible but much less pricey. Phoned up two hotels, one was Manzi’s which charged £65 a night and was right across Leicester Square, and the other was, surprise, Fielding Hotel, which charged £76.

Also had to phone up the hotel I pre-booked at in Paris to cancel. If I did go, I was supposed to catch the Chunnel train Thursday, and stay until Saturday morning. Oh well. Better save that for the long European holiday I’ve always dreamed of doing when I reach 30.


Met Ange at around 9:30 a.m. Moved my bags to her room, checked out of St. Martin’s Lane, and we were off.

Haven’t had breakfast yet, but decided to forego that and do some sightseeing while the sun was out. The forecast for the day was rain, so there was this immense pressure to go play tourist before you have to hide indoors again.

Headed for Trafalgar Square first. I loved this place.

In my favorite comic book (or should I say graphic novel), “Sandman,” there was a scene where Death meets her brother Dream at Trafalgar Square sitting by the fountain among the pigeons. While they’re there a teenage guy runs after a stray soccer ball or something and gets run over in the streets, and Death leaves Dream to go and sort him out. Not exactly a very nice thought, imagining Death, while walking around the square, taking pictures.

There was truly a horde of pigeons, and they were the fattest, laziest pigeons on earth. They obviously got so accustomed to the free food that they lost all need to fly high or far. Apparently, it’s reached a point where the authorities made it illegal to feed them already.

Ange and I decided to take one of those hop-on-hop-off tour buses. We wanted to go to Buckingham Palace for the changing of the guards at 11:30. We still had more than an hour to kill so we chose to take the long route to the Palace.

It proved to be very long indeed.


The bus slowly pushed down Fleet Street toward St. Paul’s Cathedral. At first, Ange and I didn’t notice how slow it was because we were having fun on the open air upper deck taking photos and videotaping the whole thing and all its silliness like the stereotypical tourists that we were.

We crossed London Bridge (apparently the original Bridge was bought by some eccentric American millionaire and is now in Texas!) Saw the entrance to the infamous and rather farcical attraction called The London Dungeon – which Ange cautioned me not to bother going into. Then we crossed Tower Bridge and passed by the Tower of London. (I suddenly got confused which parts to italicize.)

We were already on this bus for 45 minutes and it was starting to drizzle so we moved to the covered area of the bus.

The bus crossed the Thames again and I saw in the distance the site of Shakespeare’s Globe Theatre and the Tate Modern. Also saw the Millennium Footbridge that was constructed, opened then closed because it was so rickety that it swayed when people walk on it to cross the river. In truth, it doesn’t even look that interesting. Later swung by Horse Guards’ Parade and saw the throngs of tourists flocking around this poor soldier taking pictures beside him and his horse – even thought the place stunk with horse shit.

After what seemed like forever, we found ourselves back at Trafalgar Square. We were already late for the changing of the guards, but decided to switch to another bus to get there. Hey, we paid £12 for the limitless rides – naturally, we were going to bleed it dry!

This bus’ route took us by St. James’s Palace were Prince Charles took residence (I think). Also passed the Ritz Hotel, our tour guide was brilliant in her commentary but I can’t recall most of what she said now.

Driving past Hyde, Green and St. James’ Park, Ange and I thought of maybe having a picnic at dinnertime. But though it would be grand, we both knew with a certainty that it would be pouring by the time. Sure enough it was.

We actually passed the back of Buckingham Palace. The walls to the Palace gardens were not as high as you would think – only lined with barbed wire. The tour guide recalled that two German backpackers actually managed to go inside the garden and pitched tent there…and stayed for 2 days before they were discovered!

It was half past 12 by the time we reached the front of the Palace and got off the bus. We were laughing hysterically at how stupid it was that we left our fate to a slow moving bus and just sat by helplessly as we missed the changing of the guards.

Buckingham Palace was infested with tourists. The flag was flying so the Queen was in, but there was hardly much to appreciate because you can only stand outside the locked gates and peer through the bars anyway. I wonder what it must be like for the Queen to live here, every time she looked out the window she would see these tourists outside her home – every day, rain or shine.

Took my token photos. Not much you can do about all the people. And most of the time you say “Sorry” or “Excuse me” because either you were in somebody’s line of sight or they were in yours.

Around 1 p.m., we headed to Oxford Circus to meet up with Angela’s dad and her sister, Lizzie. I was starving.



I love Lizzie. She was always such a fun character and when I met her in Top Shop at Oxford Circus, I was thrilled at the thought that I was meeting her for the first time outside of Hong Kong. Wow, huh?

She was here to shop – as if there isn’t enough shopping to do in Hong Kong, here she was collecting more shopping bags. Apparently it was Sale season here in London too. Made a mental note to go check out the shops myself.

Uncle Peter was his lovable self and we all headed for a pub to grab lunch, though not without his suggestions to go for a Chinese restaurant instead. I don’t quite remember what I had, but it was supposedly very English. Uncle Peter ordered chicken – and was later whispering to me that it was the driest chicken he had eaten in his life and we should go eat Chinese food for dinner.

I asked Lizzie, if there were only three things I can see in London, which three things should that be? Lizzie’s top three: National Gallery, Madam Tussaud’s and Top Shop. She was half- serious and her justification made sense. With these three you’ve got a healthy mix of intellectual and fun sightseeing and good shopping. The girl’s got a point.


Angela and Lizzie’s childhood friend, Jason, joined us after lunch. He was actually offering his place for me to crash in for my extended stay. But I figured I’d be too uncomfortable staying with somebody I didn’t know, even though he was quite a fun guy. I felt bad turning his offer down though.

We walked toward Manzi’s first. I haven’t actually checked in at either this hotel or Fielding. The former had the better deal of the two, but I wanted to see what it looked like first before I commit.

Uncle Peter knew exactly where Manzi’s was so we didn’t loose time getting lost.
It was right at Leicester Square and almost in Chinatown. It was right above a famous seafood restaurant and was very, very accessible if I went out at night – a fantastic deal for £60 though I haven’t seen the rooms.

However, when I did get there, they were fully booked for the night. Rather disappointed, I phoned up Fielding, gave my credit card details and proceeded over there to make sure I had a room.

Fielding Hotel was in an alley, but it was a wide enough alley for you not to be afraid to walk through it at night. In the daytime, people sat around this statue in the middle of it and ate lunch there or just whiled away the time. In the vicinity were a number of restaurants, most of which looked like fine-dining…I suppose because of it’s proximity to the Royal Opera House. There were also about five phone booths in this one alley, I wonder how busy this place gets.

The hotel itself was tiny. You go into this really narrow door and you go into a sort of anteroom that can fit only one person. To your left is a small pub where a lobby should be. To your right is the reception. Right in front of you is another door that leads to the main hallway, which was also narrow. There was actually no elevator, so you climb up the stairs and see three doors, two of which were actual rooms and the third is a fire door that leads to another hallway and five more rooms. It’s all pretty weird, but again, very true to all my cliched images of a European hotel.


Met everyone at the FCK shop where Lizzie’s had just done more shopping the whole time I was checking in.

Then we got bus tickets at the Covent Garden Station and proceeded to catch the bus going to St. Paul’s Cathedral – which I saw briefly earlier.

You have to pay entrance to go into the Cathedral, I couldn’t believe it. A church that charged entrance, what’s up with that? It was already afternoon and the place was closing in 30 minutes so we decided it wasn’t worth it, although the 627-step staircase to the Whispering, Stone and Golden galleries at the dome would have been interesting. This dome is only surpassed in size by St. Peter’s at the Vatican.

More photos and for a while I was in awe absorbing what the tour guide on the bus said earlier. This Cathedral somehow survived the blitz of World War II, and he noted this famous photo of the Cathedral dome rising above the smoke and ruins of London. The only Latin-sounding word I know I learned from my theology teacher in college: “Mysterium Tremendum,” a term for that overwhelming mystery that leads you to realize that God exists. This was one of those.


The clouds had been ominous for most of the afternoon and by the time we boarded the bus to go to Westminster Abbey, they decided that they held back the rain long enough.

It got so bad that by the time we got off the bus, we had to take shelter at a pub lest we get drenched again. Then the rain stopped long enough for us to make a beeline for a nearby convenience store and buy umbrellas. Thus, it happened that my one of my first major purchases in London is a £13 umbrella.

When the rain stopped Jason had to leave and would meet us at dinner. Meanwhile, I looked up and saw Big Ben.

They’ve been telling me it wasn’t that big, really. But it was quite a sight. I don’t know why. Maybe it was the shiny golden trimmings around the face of the clock. And maybe because I’ve always imagined it as this old, gray structure that strangely enough symbolized for me everything dreary about London. Instead I saw this rather well maintained landmark standing proudly, reminding me of how much of this city I underestimated. It wasn’t too high, but it still draws your attention no matter how near or far you are, and even if you’re pointing your camera at something else.

We walked past the Houses of Parliament to which Big Ben was actually attached. There was a cue outside for people going in to attend some sessions. Uncle Peter suggested to me that we should go join and ask Parliament whether London will join the EU or something. I suggested other trivial things to ask like the weather or so, I can’t remember what questions we devised but Uncle Peter and I had quite a laugh.


Crossed the street to see the façade of Westminster Abbey, resting place of monarchs, site of many a coronation, and recently the funeral of Princess Diana. However, it was late and the doors were shut. Unlike Spain, everything here in London shut between 4-6 p.m. This, coupled with the crummy weather, leaves limited sightseeing opportunities.

I marveled at how ornate the abbey was, and of course, didn’t leave until my camera had its fill.

We started walking back to Trafalgar Square and passed by this phone booth. We were all in “silly tourist” mode so I insisted we take photos of the classic red British phone booths – surely the booth of choice for any phone booth connoisseur. It did get embarrassing though because there was this guy who needed to use the phone but had to wait while we finished being juvenile.

En route, we passed Downing St., the site of the Prime Minister’s residence. Gates restricted entry of course, but from the sidewalk you can see the Prime Minister’s black front door. I noted that it seemed like poor security -- considering that a sniper can just station across the street and have a clear view of the Prime Minister coming out this door.

We passed Horse Guards’ Parade again. Much to my hesitation, we went in and took a photo beside one of the guards – who promptly marched toward us (in a march that reminded me of Frederick marching out to introduce himself to Maria in “The Sound of Music,” don’t ask why). Emerged at St. James’ Park and again there were female tourists who walked up to me to ask if I can take their picture. They looked Filipino actually, but were from Canada.


Back at Trafalgar Square, we realized that the National Gallery was open up to 9 p.m. on Wednesday’s so we popped in.

I must say, Lizzie was correct to name this among her top three. It is so awesome and extremely beautiful inside. It wasn’t just the inspired works of Rembrandt, Van Gogh or Monet. It was the interiors of the museum itself. I just looked so elegant – which is just appropriate considering that it houses over 2000 paintings from the mid-13th century all the way to the early 20th, making it one of the richest galleries in the world. I can walk around here forever.

Made a note to go back here in the coming days as we left. We were all a bit hungry and we were craving that hotdog at McDonald’s – a testament to how good it was, that I wanted to eat it two days in a row. Good timing too because we were safe indoors at Leicester Square when it started to pour again.

By 7:00 p.m., we went back to St. Martin’s Lane. I got my bags from Ange’s room and made my way to my new accommodations at Fielding. Just to show how narrow the doors and the corridors are, I almost couldn’t get in with my backpack slung behind me. And it was indeed tiring going up two flights of stairs with all my stuff.

The room was ok. Two beds, a teeny-tiny private bath that was so small the washbasin and mirror had to be placed outside (which made me feel like I was in a prison cell). The room had no aircon, which is all right really considering the climate. But when I checked the windows, there was no way of leaving them ajar without any fear of burglars climbing through. In fact, I got a bit paranoid at how easily they can be opened from outside.

Had about 15 minutes to lie down in my new bed, then I was up again to go for a 10- minute walk to meet Angela’s family for dinner.


It started to pour again, but somehow we made it to Chinatown and had a rather filling Chinese dinner. Jason and some friends of his joined us. Along with Angela’s other friend, Carl, whom I met briefly in New York last April.

Interesting enough dinner, but afterwards nobody felt like going out for drinks so we all just dispersed.

I also had to say goodbye to Angela, Lizzie and Uncle Peter because they were leaving for Budapest early the next day to start their 9-day holiday that would also take them to Prague and Vienna. Wish I could join them but I already took my long break early this year.

So hugs, shook hands, thanked everyone and wished them all a great time…and then for the first time I was on my own in London.


I didn’t go straight to my hotel though. I walked around Soho for a bit, it was only 11 p.m. I was determined to check out the nightlife despite the fact that I was alone. I was used to going out by myself. I go to discos alone in Hong Kong, went to clubs in San Francisco. Didn’t really stop me.

I passed by quite a few pubs that flew the gay rainbow banner – among them Rupert Street, which looked really happening, with quite a handsome yuppie crowd too. But I suddenly felt so uncomfortable. In a bar situation, being alone is magnified by the fact that almost everybody else is talking to someone, except you. In a disco or a club, there wouldn’t be much talking, more dancing and, well, cruising.

Wandered in circles for a bit. Passed by some rather seedy alleys lined with peepshows and adult video stores.

Found myself back at Leicester Square and passed what looked like a theatre lobby but was actually the entrance to a disco – the name of which I totally forgot. There were some teenagers lined outside and the bouncers were checking bags and ID’s like you were at the airport.

Decided to venture in for lack of anywhere else to go.

It was quite a large place, three separate bars and lots of seating areas both at the ground and the mezzanine. The dance floor was huge and extended to two elevated platforms on either side. The place was quite empty though. Still a lot of people, but the place was just too huge to fill.

Dropped off my bag at the coat check and went straight to the bar for my standard vodka and tonic. Then I casually wandered to sip it by the railing at the edge of the dance floor to look at the mixed crowd.

Within minutes, this tall blonde guy in white stood next to me. He was quite close, but I wasn’t sure what to do. I wasn’t sure if he was waiting for someone or what. I didn’t know if the place was a gay hangout because the crowd was so mixed. And even if it was, I’m too inexperienced with cruising to know the signals.

He was cute though, wore glasses and had an angelic face. Looked a bit young, maybe in his early 20’s at most. And he just stood there for quite a while, no drink, no cigarette, just stood beside me watching the dance floor. I don’t know what came over me, but I decided to move away. I dropped off my empty glass at the bar and went to the toilet. F*cking stupid. Of course, when I came back, he was gone. Believe me I cursed myself the whole night.

The rest of the night was uneventful. The music was lame – c’mon, they played “Mambo No. 5,” that should’ve been my signal to leave then and there. A good looking guy went up to me and my heart stopped. But he just wanted me to take a photo of him and his friends. He had this Northern Europe sort of accent, and there were four of them, so I decided to name them “Ace of Base.” Ace of Base danced to “Mambo No. 5.”

Started yawning by 2:00 a.m. The rain was pouring as I made my way through the cold streets of London, back to the alley where my hotel was. When I got there, it was a bit dark and spooky. I imagined Jack the Ripper. The door was locked and I had to ring the bell to wake up the attendant. I felt bad for him, but well, that’s business.

Had trouble going to bed, "Mambo No. 5" is at the top of the Last Song Syndrome charts.

19 July 2001 - out there on my own

Next day, it was pissing down all morning, which didn’t encourage me to go out of my room until about 11:30 a.m.

Walked to nearby Covent Garden, which Ange warned me woule be full of shoppers despite the rain. The place did have a wide range of shops, from designer labels to quaint bookshops to a gadgets store to a line of stalls that sold exotic fabrics (mostly Asian patterns), jewelry, candelabras, picture frames, etc.

I needed to find a place to eat but couldn’t find a restaurant that was both cheap and not packed with people. So decided that first order of the day was getting to an Internet Café because I was waiting for some work-related emails. There was one at Covent Garden that charged £1 per 15 minutes and was open until 10 p.m.

After a bit more walking, I eventually had a non-eventful lunch, and lounged around a bit. There were street performers here as well and they were quite inventive. One of them was doing a Charlie Chaplin routine which please the crowds, while another was a tenor who sang “The Marriage of Figaro” to the customers having lunch at the patio.


I decided to take the Underground and buy that £4 one-day pass so I can go to as many sights I could with what daylight the clouds above would allow.

The Covent Garden Station was rather unusual because you had to cram into these elevators to go down to the platforms. The attendants keep reminding people on the PA system that if they took the stairs keep in mind that there are almost 200 steps to go and that it’s the equivalent of a 5-storey building (or is it 15? I forget). Apart from that the stairwell looked really dark and grimy and creepy, I think people just die of a heart attack there and lay undiscovered.

Once on my way back up, there were some passengers who were so impatient with the elevators that they decided to climb the stairs – I can’t help but imagine how they felt when they got to the street…if they did.


The London Underground is much cleaner than the New York or Chicago subways, but the corridors turn and go up and down that it feels like a maze – albeit a brightly lit one.

The trains were comfortable though, they actually had cushioned chairs! But that also meant they had less standing space than other, more practical subway trains. And worse, you can’t just go from one train car to the next. So if the car is really packed and someone stinks, you’re pretty much stuck there unless you get off.


My first stop was the Marble Arch. I knew not the story behind this but it looked good when I passed by it earlier this week. Besides, I figured it a good parallel to the Puerta de Alcala I fell in love with in Madrid.

Next I got off at Notting Hill Gate. Now, to be honest, I wanted to go here because of that Julia Roberts movie and that’s it. There I admitted it. But I was aware that I had no idea where the scenes were filmed and wasn’t able to do much research on where to head in the area.

So when I got out of the station, I passed a used-CD shop and figured, heck, this is a good enough stop. One hour later, my fingers were gray with dust after sifting through the CDs in three shops – and I had spent £12 on CDs that cost between £1-2, quite a deal. However, by now the sky got impatient and it started pouring again. When it let up, I walked around a bit and saw some really nice apartments. But nothing from the movie.

So by 3:30 p.m. I was off to Kensington.


My objective was to see Kensington Palace, the residence of the late Princess Diana.

However when I got off the station I found myself in yet another busy shopping district – and once more I got distracted and found myself using up what time I had to do some window-shopping.

When I did want to go to the Palace already, I had a bit of trouble finding it. Surprising as it may sound, considering it’s size. But eventually I stumbled upon the gates to Kensington Gardens and after a short walk through this park, I beheld the Palace in its serene grandeur.

I suppose it’s like apples and oranges, but I started comparing it to Buckingham and how this palace felt like a home. Make no mistake that it was big, but it was flanked by rows of trees that hid most of its wings, hence only revealing parts of it at a time. And with a whole park next to it, you feel like you’re in an estate away from the city – even though you are right in the middle of London. You can actually go inside the Palace but of course, I was too near closing time that it wouldn’t be worth it.

It was already 5:15 p.m. by the time I got to the Natural History Museum. This was the ornate building that I first saw when I arrived from the airport. And Angela and my boss’ boss did warn me that a day won’t be enough to go around it. I suppose it was futile but I went inside with the 30 minutes I had until closing time – they waived the entrance fee anyway.

The lobby was as expansive as a grandiose train station, but look up at the stained-glass and arched windows by the staircase and you feel like you’re in Notre Dame (well, not that I’ve ever actually been to Notre Dame at this time, but I imagine it would be). You were greeted by this imposing dinosaur skeleton – a Diplodocus – whose head juts out beyond the ticket booths as if to smell every visitor that goes through the door.

Dinosaur exhibits always thrill me. There was a phase of my childhood when I was so obsessed with dinosaurs, I wanted to be a paleontologist. Good things that didn’t last otherwise I’d be Ross, my most hated character in “Friends.”

Funny thing is I’ve never actually seen a dinosaur skeleton until this year. And as if to make up for the lost time, I’ve seen quite a bit – the T-Rex and the Brachiosaurus in Chicago, the Apatosaurus and the large collection of dinosaurs in New York, and now this in London. Unfortunately, I didn’t have time to wander around. I had barely fifteen minutes left, so I just went up the staircase and looked at what exhibits there were near the lobby. Truth was, the interiors of the museum itself amazed me more. It was such an intricate Gothic revival building, with fine details in everything from the stairs to the walls to the pillars to the windows.

Took some photos and bought a postcard at the souvenir shop, then headed out with the rest of the crowd.

It was almost 6 p.m. and most of the other sights would be closed – Harrod’s included. I decided to just head back to Picadilly Circus and Leicester Square to grab some dinner and maybe look for some CDs at Tower, HMV and Virgin Records.


Night fell and I was wandering around Soho. I decided that tonight I’d go to a surely gay club and won’t be the loser that I was the night before.

Went back to my hotel, showered up and checked out my guidebook. I marked down two clubs to go to, mapped out how to get there and turned on the telly and lazily watched “Big Brother” while waiting for 10:30 p.m.

It was drizzling when I got out of the Tottenham Court station. I was heading for the Astoria, an old movie theatre converted into a club. At first I had trouble finding it, until I encountered a couple of loud queens – one of whom shouted “Hello!!!” at me when he passed. I was sure they were headed my way so I followed them and saw the place, and the queue that was forming outside.

The Astoria having been located, I went down the Underground again and rode to Charing Cross Station.

By the banks of the river Thames was a club called Heaven. It’s supposed to be London’s most popular gay club and filled three floors. It wasn’t difficult to find either. There was a large mob of people outside the door. Everybody was cordoned off and a bouncer and this guy with a clipboard were playing God, deciding who goes through and who doesn’t.

Most of the people in the crowd were in really spiffy suits and looked like they went shopping just for tonight. Lots of gorgeous men and women. I made my way to the side just to watch the proceedings. I was in an all black number myself, but I was certain that I still dressed too casually to get in.

This Italian looking guy was next to me. Strong jaw, five o-clock shadow, dusky features, broad shoulders – all the works needed to make it to a Calvin Klein pictorial. He puffed a cigarette beside me and for a while I was wondering if by some miracle I’d be so lucky. Of course not. After a few minutes, he spotted his companions and joined them. I’m sure they’d get in. I wasn’t too bitter. I’d be too self-conscious in this place even if I did enter. So with a shrug, I headed back down to the tube and went to the Astoria. My £4 day-pass was so worth it.

The place was called the Astoria but the club itself was G-A-Y. I didn’t realize this until I went inside. The place was indeed a cinema. They still used the ticket booth at street level. You went up and the coat check was where the popcorn stand used to be, and you go up the stairs. Enter the swinging doors and you were at the main theatre. There was a dance floor where there used to be seats and the DJ was playing right in front of the screen which still flashed images and ads. (Among which was the announcement that the 80’s band Human League would be playing this Saturday! Damn, I’d miss it.)

As soon as I entered the door, this guy suddenly tapped my shoulder and started talking to me. I was a bit weirded out and I think he realized he got the wrong guy. Or maybe that was a come on, I’m not sure. But he said sorry, I said it’s ok, smiled and just left. He didn’t look bad but wasn’t my type.

I was downing a vodka and tonic again and took my spot by the dance floor. Saw quite a number of cute guys and was relieved that at least tonight I don’t feel so alien in the crowd. There were even a few other Asians in there – some of which could have been Filipino like me.

After getting used to the place I started dancing. There were girls in there as well, mostly butch. In truth some guys were eyeing me, but I didn’t eye them back. Now if only I could get someone I like for a change.

About an hour later, this drunk fellow with a beer belly suddenly put his arm around me and was about to hug me. “Whoa! Hahaha…,” I laughed as I not-so-gently pushed him back. He was still at it and this time going for a kiss. Pushed him back again and quickly got out of there. Good thing he didn’t follow me.

I left the club an hour later. It was 3 a.m. Walking home, I phoned up my close friend and club-hopping mate in New York. I got her voice mail and just said that I was feeling down and very alone and wished she was here.

Back at the hotel, I needed to phone up Hong Kong and Malaysia for work. It was an insane thing to do, and the people I called told me so. But at least the night was productive in that way. Yes, work. Work is good. And my lovelife sucks more than I do – oh yes, a whole lot more than I do.

20 July 2001 - Platform 9B to Cambridge

Again the day started with me at the Internet Café at 10:00 a.m. I emailed work and some friends to say that I’m lonely in London – and found myself a bit ashamed of telling them this when I’ve got so many other blessings to count.

Got a new day-pass at the Underground and headed for the National Gallery. I first had breakfast at the coffee shop downstairs, then I proceeded to check out a few more paintings. There’s a Vermeer painting called “The Girl with the Pearl Earring.” I loved this painting because my sister had a replica of it that she placed on a bed of painted eggshells – quite a unique craft that she perfected – and she framed it and hung it in our house.

However, I learned that this wasn’t on display anymore. So I just went to the museum shop to get souvenirs for officemates and family, and got that Vermeer painting in its postcard form.

By 11:30, I headed for Harrod’s. From the tube station, you can already tell how many tourists flock to this place. Ironically most of them were Asian. It was kinda stuck up, as I expected. They do not allow backpacks slung over your shoulder, you have to hold it in your hand.

You can’t appreciate how huge it is at first because you go through room after room, each containing specific things and themes – perfumes, toys, designer clothes – just like any department store. You do realize how elegant everything is, and proportionally pricey. Then your legs start to ache walking through the endless maze of rooms and your hands feel uncomfortable dragging your backpack.

I passed through the food forum and saw the deli which served everything from cheese to chocolates to caviar and stuff.

Then I decided to just check out the toy section and saw an endless array of teddy bears (the Harrod’s mascot). Also saw the main section, which sold everything from pricey toy cars that had an actual working engine, to Lego and Harry Potter items. I wanted to buy some things but decided that it’s just all too snobbish here for me.

Originally, I was supposed to be in Paris by today. When I couldn't get a visa in time, I thought of going to Edinburgh in Scotland. Then I asked Angela and Lizzie where else I can go for a day trip out of London. I got two answers: Cambridge or Oxford. There was a minor debate on which one is better. Cambridge was Ange’s vote because it was just so beautiful and had fabulous scenery. Lizzie studied at Oxford and argued that it was less sprawling, closer to London and there’s obviously good reason why more tourists frequent it. Up to yesterday, I wasn’t sure where I should go. But then I realized that my guidebook only had instructions on how to get to Cambridge, so by default, my choice was made.

I reached King’s Cross station at around 1:05 p.m. I hadn’t had lunch and realized that I could catch the 1:15 train to Cambridge. So I scrambled to the ticket booth and got a ticket then made a quick stop at the toilet and then rushed to Platform 9B. For a while I thought of “Harry Potter” and how J.K. Rowling described the magical Platform 9¾ and imagined myself on the Hogwarts Express. True. I was on an express train. I was headed for a school. But that’s where the similarities end. I took out my headphones and played my mini-disc. In my bag, I discovered the half of a smoked salmon sandwich that I wasn’t able to finish from breakfast.

In the one-hour non-stop ride, I saw some of England’s beautiful landscapes. The land was a rich green and the sky was smiling blue. It was a perfect day to shoot a Jane Austen movie. I tried to keep myself awake to savor the view, but I had mastered the art of sleeping on any moving vehicle too well.

I was unimpressed with Cambridge at first. I took a local guide map from the visitor center at the train station, then started on a kilometer-walk to the town center. It was a quiet place to live in, streets weren’t too busy and life seemed to be slow. But I was here for either or both of two things – picture perfect scenery and timeless architecture – and after 15 minutes of walking, I was already getting impatient.

There are actually tourists bus from the train station that took you around the city. I knew I should’ve taken this, but this wanderlust I had told me that I could appreciate more by just walking through little alleys. Right. I also had the option of renting a bike (if I can find the place where they rented them out). But again, I wanted the freedom to just walk in and out of a place and taking my time – without having to worry about securing my bike or making sure I return it by closing time.

The first ‘old’ building that I saw was this church by the main road, The Roman Catholic Church of Our Lady and the English Martyrs – I swear, this is what it was called. I went inside and took time to say my thanks. It had a dark, gloomy interior – definitely not as grandiose as the cathedrals I’ve seen in Spain and in London, but apparently it was the highest city landmark, with a spire that rose 214 feet.

Before long I was hungry again and wanted to rest my weary legs. I was getting so desperate that I almost dove into a Pizza Hut that I saw. Fortunately I kept on going and after close to a thirty minute walk, I saw this park where groups of students lay in the grass, college kids threw a ball here and there, and basked in the glorious sun. My map marked this as Parker’s Place, and it indicated that there was a place to eat nearby so I rushed to it and sat in an outdoor table and enjoyed a rather delicious burger while watching everyone at the park. An airplane took off beyond the park, the airport must have been close by because the plane looked huge. I wasn’t able to take out my camera in time, so I took a snapshot of that one scene in my head and decided that life is beautiful. That is until a bee flew into my lemon juice.



My guidebook warned me not to miss King’s College and its chapel. So I headed for it first. Along the way, I started seeing some of the century-old architecture that I was looking forward to. Some of the buildings here dated back to the 13th century, and you won’t doubt it when you look at how time has blackened its walls like a fire attempted to demolish them at one point or another.

I was no longer feeling tired and was actually thankful that I did not board a bus or rent a bike. I wandered from busy streets to tiny alleys, ducking into this or that shop, and found myself playing artistic photographer, taking photos that just captured the sublime atmosphere of this city.


King’s College was 550 years old. It dated back to the time of King Henry VI, not that I knew which King he was nor appreciate its significance, really. But according to the guest pamphlet, King Henry did go to great lengths to make sure nothing would equal this College’s magnificence in all of Cambridge and Oxford.

I took photos of the College gateway from the busy roadside that was lined with parked bicycles and souvenir shops. However to go into King’s, you follow a footpath to the side of the chapel (which to me looks more like a basilica). You turn a bend and emerge in another world. Surreal and quiet, you find yourself dwarfed by the colossal chapel on one side and the castle-like school buildings (which even had chess piece-like towers) on the left. I looked around me half-expecting to see century-old ghosts watching from the windows.

When you enter King’s Chapel, the first thing you see is…the souvenir shop. Now, most historic churches have some form of shop at the entrance, but this one had all the works, including revolving stands of postcards, shelves filled with display items and two rather busy cash registers. It bothered me a bit, but the merchandise was so irresistible I found myself contributing to the cash register’s glee.

Venturing further inside the chapel, I imagined that this was what Westminster Abbey would look like if I did get to go in. The interior of the chapel was divided into two by a massive “screen,” an oaken structure that looked like mix between a confessional and a bridge. This screen housed the organ – and bore the initials of Henry VIII and his soon-to-be-executed Queen Anne Boleyn. Beyond it was the brass Lectern and the Stalls (seats) on either side. I remember the news footage of Princess Diana’s funeral ceremony at Westminster Abbey, and this is what it looked like. In the far wall was the Great East Window that depicted the passion and crucifixion of Christ in such grand scale.

Stepping outside the Chapel, I found myself on the other side of the gateway I was taking pictures of earlier. This was the Front Court of the College, and the first thing that awes you is the perfectly green and perfectly manicured lawn, at the center of which was a fountain which was crowned by the statue of King Henry VI, the ‘boy king.’

Walking westward, I crossed the also perfectly manicured back lawn to a path beside the river Cam and saw the two of the many bridges that spanned it (hence the name Cambridge). From here you get a spectacular view of King’s Chapel with its spires that rose over 80 feet high piercing the summer sky. And to contrast it’s height, right beside it was the wide and palatial Gibb’s Building an 18th century structure that housed most of the college’s teaching and administration rooms. Walking further down the river, you reach a point where you have a perfectly symmetrical view of the building, where you can look through the archway to see King Henry VI’s fountain at the Front Court and the gateway beyond.

On the river, there were a number of tourists punting along the Backs (the river Cam), which was basically going on boats that you pushed along on those long sticks instead of paddling – a wet way to see the colleges, according to my guidebook. I crossed the bridge and went down the path away from the tourists and onto the slice of English countryside beyond. The meadows offered some unique views of the chapel and Gibb’s Building, and I was inspired to take some ‘artistic’ photos (not all of which turned out ok).



After a short walk down the trail, I found myself by another bridge and crossed back towards town. On the bridge someone parked a lone bicycle and my snapshot of this and the river beyond was by far my favorite photo in this trip.

I walked down narrow alley again and emerged between Clare and Trinity Colleges. Something about Trinity called to me so I paid the entrance fee and wandered in. Founded in 1546, this college was home to the likes of Sir Isaac Newton (in whose honor there stood an apple tree outside the Great Gate of the college), author W.M.Thackeray, philosopher Francis Bacon, poet Lord Tennyson, and even Prince Charles.


Entering the inner courtyard, the Great Court, was like being transported back in time. I imagined suddenly looking at my clothes and seeing myself suddenly in uniform, books in hand, like Robert Sean Leonard in “Dead Poets Society.” A lone gardener was mowing the picture perfect lawn. In the center of the courtyard was a fountain and to the left side, a sundial that dated back to the 1704.

Apparently this court was named such because it was the largest University court in the world. On the north side of the yard was the Chapel, adorned by a rather ornate clock tower. You enter the chapel, through the gates beneath the tower. Like King’s Chapel, the interior was divided into two by the organ screen, one part being the ‘ante-chapel’ and the other the main chapel. In the ante-chapel was a statue of Sir Isaac Newton along with other statues and portraits of various distinguished members of the college through the centuries. Coming from the other side of the screen, I heard violins. I walked toward the main chapel and saw a string quartet practicing – or it could have been a performance for all I cared given how inspired they sounded. It took a lot of will power to exit the chapel under such conditions.
Emerging at the Great Court once more, I walked down the path toward the southern gate that was the Queen’s Gate, with a statue of Queen Elizabeth I over the archway.

At the left of this was the Hall. I walked through its arched corridor and emerged at Neville’s Court which was cordoned off. The buildings beyond were proud and serene, as the afternoon sun began to set behind it, casting an eerie glow that pierced its windows. I breathed in the moment, once more imagining what it would have been like to study here, hear the click-clack of shoes on these corridors and be sheltered from the harsh realities of life.

I walked inside the Hall again and saw the dining area. There was an attendant (I’m sure he has a more dignified name to his job) at the entrance and I asked innocently if I can have a look inside. He nodded a very welcoming yes. I walked in and it was like every period movie about students in a boarding school. The tables were lined down the long dining hall. There weren’t any place settings but you can visualize how elegant and stiflingly proper it must be. The ceilings rose high above, allowing large windows to let sunlight in through stained glass --- making it feel more like a cathedral than a dining room. Below these windows were portraits of more alumni. Again I asked the attendant if I could take photos and he allowed me, though I knew I couldn’t capture the feeling of the place in film.

I went back out the Great Court and headed out the gate. It was past 5 p.m. and I knew I wouldn’t make it to the 5:45 express train to London.

Wandered aimlessly eastward and passed streets lined with houses. I passed a small movie house that was showing some art film I’ve never even heard of. (Man! Isn’t anybody screening “Tomb Raider” around here?)
I was walking down Jesus Lane and wondered if I could see Jesus College, which intrigued me for no particular reason other than it seemed to cover a huge area on my map – though Trinity College is supposedly the largest of the Cambridge colleges.
After a long walk I wound up in an open area known as Midsummer Common. Footpaths criss-crossed it and people were walking casually across it. A lone man lay on the grass reading a book in the fading light, his bicycle lying beside him. At this point, I remembered that I should phone up Angela’s friends Karl and Jason to tell them I don’t think I’d take them up on their offer to meet for dinner since I was still in Cambridge.

I made a large U-turn around the footpaths and slowly ventured southward intending to go back to the main road. I passed houses and pubs with names like The Green King. Eventually I emerged in a park called Christ’s Pieces. There were quite a number of people lounging about the park or cutting through it on their way home. On the southern end was a rather busy bus station, and I was contemplating whether I should find a coach headed for London – but decided that I didn’t want to risk winding up in a strange part of the city. Besides I already bought a return ticket.

5:45 p.m. came and went as expected, and I was becoming rather beat walking endlessly trying to hit a familiar street. I almost missed the main road, which by now had a long queue for cabs, mostly tourists on their way back to the train station like me.

I walked faster down to the train station. It was not a short walk and I must have walked over 9 kilometers all in all here in Cambridge.

A clean cut guy in a suit was walking with me to the station and for a minute I got all hopeful again. What can I say? It was getting dark, night’s cold and you’re lonely, you know?

Of course, nothing happened. True to Ange and Lizzie’s warnings, the train schedules were messed up, but fortunately to my advantage. Just when I thought I missed the 6:15 train by ten minutes, here it was, behind schedule. I got to the platform right on time and sat by the window to gaze eastward at everything turning orange in the slow setting sun.

I fought the urge to close my eyes and sleep to savor this priceless view of England.

As the train sped by I saw two figures sitting on bales of hay in the middle of a wide expanse of land. They watched my train pass, as I watched them and pictured how they spoke of nothings or maybe they made grand plans for the future or pledged their friendship or just sat there quietly observing the world pass them by one trainload at a time. I never envied anyone as much.


It was a quarter past 7 p.m. by the time I got out of King’s Cross station. Before diving back into the Underground again, I took a moment to look at the “Victorian Gothic Revival” façade of St. Pancras Station – at least my guidebook mentioned it was worth a look.


At the spur of the moment, I decided to hop on the tube train that would take me to Westminster Bridge. I got out of the station just in time to see light fade around Big Ben. I took some time out to cross the Bridge where I could take good photos of both the width of the Houses of Parliament on one side, and the celebrated millennium ferris wheel, the London Eye on the other. On the bridge there were three mime artists blocking pedestrians – two women with tearful painted faces tied at the waist to this guy, weird.

I headed back to see the front of Westminster Abbey that I didn’t get to see last time. Took more snapshots of the area in the quickly darkening skies. Then I walked back to Trafalgar Square, rather exhausted. It started to drizzle so I decided to find a place to grab a quick dinner. Conveniently there was a McDonald’s on the way so I had today’s fill of their fantastic hotdog.


9:00 p.m. and I was back at Covent Garden, back at the internet café emailing work. Shortly after I was back at my hotel, collapsed on the bed and just gazing at the ceiling. I wasn’t sure if I should go out tonight or not. On the one hand, I knew I was setting myself up for another depressing night returning home alone and unwanted. On the other, it was my last night in London.

Had a brief nap and woke up half an hour later and started to pack my stuff, leaving only what I needed to go out tonight and tomorrow.

By 10:30 p.m., I was watching the first episode of “Will & Grace” which I had seen a hundred times already and still found funny. Channel-surfed through more British TV and decided that it was time to head out.



I decided that I was going back to The Astoria. It was Friday night, and I got a flyer yesterday informing me that this was “G-A-Y’s Camp Attack.” Even my guidebook was telling me that this was the place to be on a Friday night. I braced myself for a lot of screaming queens dancing to Kylie Minogue and Donna Summer.

There was a staircase by the coat check that I didn’t notice last night. I headed up and emerged in this cozy lobby with a single bar and a lot of guys standing around chatting or cruising. Apparently this was the pub section of the club, very interesting. I decided that I’d allow myself to look like a loser and just get a beer and stand in a corner, if only to observe. After fifteen minutes or so, I decided that my self-esteem was fast being eroded by sheer self-consciousness so I headed up the stairs to the dance floor.

But instead of emerging where I was last night, I found myself at the balcony overlooking the main dance area. The atmosphere was electric. Really camp 80s music was blasting through the speakers and nobody minded that this was music you wouldn’t be caught on tape dancing to. I went up the balcony, which instead of seats had only steps and railings so that people can just stand and watch the goings on below.

They moved the DJ booth up here too, which allowed for people to dance up on the main stage by the screen. I found a cozy level and rested by the railing like everyone else, sipped my beer and tapped my feet as the Communards sang “Don’t Leave Me This Way,” followed by Diana Ross’ fun but highly camp 80s track “Chain Reaction,” and naturally, the Weather Girls’ “It’s Raining Men.” The atmosphere was so gay that you heard screams of total glee at every change of song.

Again, like the night before, as soon as I stayed put, I noticed some guys position themselves close to me. One of them was looking at me, but once more, I chickened out and avoided his direction. I don’t know why. It’s not like I’m that new to the scene.

Anyway, naturally in time I found myself alone again – and I decided that maybe it’s better this way, because making an effort would have meant it was more me rather than circumstance that was the reason for my being alone.

I downed maybe three bottles of beer and was having a great time. G-A-Y did a thirty minute preview of tomorrow’s Human League party by playing all the band’s songs from 1:00-1:30 a.m. I realized that I didn’t like Human League that much after all.

Past 2 a.m. and I was battling fatigue already and had to find a place to sit down. This had been a long day. Who was I fooling? If something did happen and I’d get lucky, I’d probably fall asleep halfway through it anyway. With that thought I finished my drink and headed off, taking one last glance at the party below. A party that would last until morning…the kind of party that I would have loved to go to if I had my friends with me.